My artwork retells the story of my life journey with auditory and visual hallucinations which have influenced my life ever since a teenager. They have been a subject of interest after following my diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. In my work, I deconstruct the many traumas in my life through dream symbols, shamanism, tantra, mythologies, the ethereal and supernatural. Creatures from these themes have been central to my beliefs that fall under delusional thoughts. They are essential keys to unlock one’s search of truth and decoding illusions, especially where the lines between the saint and the madman is drawn by society.
They are combined in different styles and methods showing their phases in each. I do not have one specific style as they differ according to the medium I used. There are also different parts or 'selves' in me that paints and they have their own ways. Some have been created during episodes of psychosis or seizures. There are distinct repetitive line patterns in the pen work influenced by fractal theory as my hope to find my home planet. Featherlike brush strokes in the paintings is my signature stroke that first began when the voices forced me to paint. They suggest racing thoughts which I redefined to diffused thinking, allowing me to gather all of my anxiety and muddled emotions into an image to help me understand and heal from the underlying trauma.
The mediums used vary from ball point pen, poster, fabric, acrylic, charcoal, ink, pencils. Digital prints are recreated pieces from art works that I have destroyed due to constant inner turmoil. The ability to recreate what is destroyed and offer them a different life allowed me to rebirth myself. Each piece has a story to tell in redefining life, moving beyond the ordinary perception and finding spiritual evolution. They have been carefully selected to depict the Language of Madness, an already published research paper that explains schizophrenia through existential psychology, Buddhism and philosophy.
There are many commissioned works that show the varied differences in all my styles as they cater to a client's specific need.